Some people decide to have a word that represents their desires for that year. For a few years, I used the word intentionality, and last year was the first time I felt like I was intentional in a lot of areas of my life. I focused on what was right in front of me. I didn't get everything I wanted done last year, but I feel like my relationships with family and friends and with God grew stronger and started to heal. I challenged myself to be intentional about regularly attending adoration and confessions. I went every month last year to learn not to be scared of confession (remember, I'm a protestant convert) and to spend time with Jesus, bringing everything on my mind to Him. And it worked. I saw a difference in myself, and other people saw a difference too.
This year, I decided I wanted my word to be "consistency". I know that path isn't going to be straight, so I have to just keep moving. I have to be consistent. Consistent with what I fuel my body with, moving my body, and what I am letting into my mind. No more negative thoughts or self-sabotaging; no more giving up after I had a hard day and went to McDonald’s to fill the void; no more quitting when I miss one day on my workout routine; and especially no more giving up when I don’t see results fast enough. I just need to be consistent and take the next small step, and the next, and the next, to hopefully, with God’s grace and mercy, get to where I need to be.